Well.. I have created a new account.. and I will upload some writings from this profile, but not all of them...
*sighs*

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Recently, I have been looking into Psilocybin Mushrooms, or Shrooms... if anyone has any information about finding them, it is greatly appreciated.
Forgive me, for not updating so much lately.. my mind doesn't seem to be clear enough to find the words.
It's just so clouded...
...I haven't written very much recently...although I am trying...if anyone wishes to speak with me, you may send a message...
This is all I am going to write for now..
well, this is our Family...

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...and here are some interesting and deep Bands...listed from Z to A ...



Z:
Zao

Y:

X:

W:
Words Of The Dying
Within Temptation
The Wake

V:
Vanessa Williams

U:
The Used
Unwritten Law
Under Oath

T:
Type O Negative
Twin Method
Tristania
Trigger Point
Tribe Of Eden
Tool
Threshold
Three Days Grace
Thirty Seconds To Mars

S:
Staind
Slipknot
Simple Plan
Sevendust
Senses Fail
Seether
Sadus

R:
Ritual
Rise Against
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Q:

P:
Porselain
Porcelain
Peregrine
Paramore

O:
Ozzy Osbourne
The Offspring
Oasis

N:
Nirvana
Nine Inch Nails
New Age Syndrome

M:
My Chemical Romance
Mudvayne
Monica Richards
Misfits
Metallica
Madina Lake

L:
Linkin Park
Leaves Fall

K:

J:

I:
Incubus

H:
Hurt
HIM
Hawthorne Heights
Hands Down

G:
Goldfinger
Gather

F:
The Fray
Flyleaf

E:
Evanescence
Enigma
Edge Of Earth

D:
Dying Tears
Drowning Pool
Disturbed
Death Cab For Cutie

C:
The Cure
Cradle Of Filth
Controlled Bleeding
Children Of Bodom
Chevelle

B:
Bullet For My Valentine
Bleed The Dream
Black Flag

A:
Avenged Sevenfold
Atreyu
Ashes Divide
Anathema
Ana Kanpa
Alter Bridge
All That Remains
All American Rejects
AFI

I know that I haven't updated this journal in a while.. not have I been so active to this site in general.
Well.. I haven't been able to write for a while.. and I seem to have misplaced the wire for my camera..
After burning piles of old memories and everything... I only took a few pictures...
I didn't burn anything that someone wrote to me...but I did burn many old journals and things I wrote... they only depress me, they weigh so much and take up too much space... it's too hard to keep on hiding all of it..
I've also met the Sea.. she is more powerful and vivid than I imagined..
Forgive me, I don't feel like taking an hour or longer to write more in depth about everything that happened...
So this is all for now..
anyone I have not replied to.. please forgive me, I just.. haven't been able to lately.
I will reply to anything if you truly wish for me to...just send me the link to anything I may have left for a while...

Well…there is this beautiful…loving, compassionate Pit Bull Dog…who has the name, Spunky… he lives at my mother’s house…
And every once so often, he manages to get out of the house through the back door… to have some Freedom, I mean who doesn’t want Freedom?… even just for a moment, his profound Desperations…
But what will a Humyn think to see a Pit Bull running freely?… it just isn’t “normal” in their eyes, and creates such fear…
Well… he went on… someone’s “ property ” ( now that Humyns believe in “owning” the flesh of their own Mother… )
Well… those Humyns “owned” two Dogs who were “barking” which really frustrated them… so they yelled at Spunky, telling him to “go home”…
And he just ran throughout their yard, looking at a Dog who was tied to a leash…
Well, one Humyn came out screaming and waving a stick at him… so he “barked” at the Humyn, and “ charged ” towards him… which frightened the Humyns, they say that Spunky is “aggressive”…
So, they called the “ police ” and “ dog ward ”…
..and my mother is so afraid thinking now, “ if he’s getting aggressive, he might bite someone which will get me in trouble since he is a Pit Bull ”…
…now, she wants to “ put him to sleep ” …or should I say, give him to those medicated Humyns who are going to inject him with a deadly poisonous chemical, and murder him for their desperation to have superiority over all other living Beings…
…and he hears what she is saying, the poor Dog looks so depressed and hurt by what she says to him and to others…
and this is “ Humane ”?…
this is “ normal ”?…

even if he did “bite” someone, there must surely be a reason for it…
he is so kind and loving, and to lose him… will deeply hurt many others… although my mother really enjoys her superiority, she will even miss him… the Cats will miss him, since they are always lying down with him and grooming him…*sighs*

nobody cares …nobody listens …nobody even tries to see anything at all …nobody exists…

and everyone… fears Death… why do they fear Death?… do they really even fear that Death, or do they simply fear the fact that they have no idea what has happened to their loved one?… simply the knowledge that they will never see that loved one again… or will they?…

I embrace the beauty of Natural Death… but to be… poisoned by complete, ignorant strangers… I do not understand something so terrible…

As usual, I can’t find any words to say…but I have finished chapter two of my story, I’ll submit it as soon as possible…chapter one is here…

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and here, is another Immortal Rain quote…by Kaori Ozaki…


“ God said,
‘Live’
‘Love’
‘Fight’
‘Kill’
‘Eat’
Give Birth’
‘Repeat’
We were bound in chains
The world was made by people
And it overflowed
‘Til we could no longer breathe
We didn’t know
That God left us here
Yet we continue to dance
This endless dance
Even when both of our legs
Are covered in blood.”